still not ready

i'm quite not ready to go with that thing but i need to do for some reason. hopefully i can manage this situation facing the person that i know that hated me for what i've done. i really feel bad halfway but i need to do this for her. let's see what will happened when we see each other, this feeling is killing me softly and i don't want this feeling cause it make me crazy and i can't handle it right....... :( for what we have right now.... i've been here before and will be back again and again for same reason. -pacoadeva-