another conversation

yesterday early morning i was browsing my site because i was so bored at that time....
i was shock when she ask me regarding i still love you.... and i cannot answer right away and i don't give any answer at all.
she said "i know you still love her i'm 100% sure on that, why are you doing this...? you can go back to her if you want...."
my only answer to her is "i need to be ok and to be with you...."
she said "your doing this for her.... mahal na mahal mo nga sya hinde mo kayang saktan at kalimutan, gagawiin mo lahat para sa kanya......"
i was so confuse for that conversation..... knowing that i need to do this......
i can only say that it's make difficult day and day.....
i hope i can manage this and things will be ok.....
it's harder now than i think before going to this situation....:((tears)

-neina-

... a new beginings...

i'ts almost a month since my birthday..... and i was so happy that day.... having interview on my birthday... but now i will start a new beginning with no work only me... i hope i can find a job that will give me new idea and improve me.... i was thankful for that day, because i'm with the one i want to be with... thank you so much... i will change everything i will start from scratch.... hope this will change if not i will go back where i belong...

-neina-

sadness.....

i was so sad for what happening and even i don't know what to do....
still i stand by with the old folk.
i was not got to online for awhile hope it will help.....
i don't want all my love will vanis by anger..... this was my fear if my anger is beating me...
i don't want to happen this... cause the one i love will suffer most rather than me....
i need to endure every pain every sadness that will come.... even myself will destroy... so my anger is still anger not the one i fear to happen....
for the past day.... it was difficult to adjust.... but i don't know how long i can stand for it.....
i was always crying every time i was thinking that another day was past and i was still standing....

--neina--

. . . . i . . . .

i was sitting and thinking of something that i will do.....
i was wondering if i can still do this after what happened in my life...
it was different for what i been thinking....
i almost give everything for someone that i want to be with, it seems that it was so hard doing that......
i was scared for what will happened next...
i may not ready for what will happen but i will face it what ever is it...
i know my choice is the right one....